I’m moving back to BeautyisHerName.net for anyone that’s interested. I’ll be updating for real on there soon.

I feel really tired of life. I’m constantly working, either at job or my school work. I feel so tired. I’m ready to go. But don’t get me wrong, I do enjoy working on my projects, but I really do need a break from life. Can I get one? Is there any possible way for me to get one? It’s 4am in England right now, and I’ve been working on my project all day today, and I’m still up. What am I doing? I don’t know. Just random stuff for my personal enjoyment. I’m just so lonely here. I gotta keep remind myself that I’m here for a good purpose, that I have to suck it up and be strong.

Biggest mistake I have ever made!!! UK has this stupid tenancy rule where you can’t get out of your contract unless you find a replacement. As in the states, all you need to do is pay the penalty. Shit sucks. I moved out of the dorm and am now living in a room in a private house, and the shit is wack as fuck (notice the cussing? I normally don’t cuss). The damn people living in the house keep turning the heat off after 10 min I turned it on. Ridiculous. It’s freezing in the house. I’m half way sick, and they do this shit? The damn landlord won’t let me get out of the contract even after only a week of signing it. The other dorm closer to campus has a room available, but told me a day late. I’m so angry and stressed out over this.

It’s been two weeks since I’ve been in UK. The dorm is not the best, but it’s cozy and full of nice people. However, it’s too far from the campus I have classes in. I ended up finding a room for rent in a house. Little did I know that, over here, you sign a contract when you live in school’s dorm. Also, you have to find a person to replace you to take over your contract in order for you to move. Luckily, I knew someone that’s looking for a place to stay, and signed over my room to him. It’s crazy for me to think about this. I thought I was going to stay in school since I’m in a foreign country. I walked for over 4 hours on Friday looking at different houses. In the process, I think I caught a cold. Woke up in the morning with a slight soar throat. This is the last thing that I need: get sick right before school starts. I’m moving tomorrow (Sunday), and have been having second thoughts about it. I really hit a huge depressive spot today, I didn’t want to move any more after going through all the hassles and really missed home. I wanted to jump on a plane and just fly back home. Then boyfriend made me feel better. Things start to look on a much more positive note. Everything happens for a reason, right?

Today is a sad day and a happy day. I’m sad because I’m leaving everyone I love behind, I’m happy because I’m taking a step closer to my career. I’m going to Bournemouth UK today. Everything will be so different. I’m nervous. I’m going to miss my baby so much. I pray things will be good for him while I’m gone. I hope this long distance relationship will work out. After all, we’ve been together for almost 8 years, it is time to get a break from staring at each other all day long? LOL. I’ll have to try to make the best of this. So scary, so exciting, so nervous. I hope things will work out great for both of us.

UK, here I come!